Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The Have and Have-Nots

As I was on my way to work this morning, I was thinking it may be therapeutic to give my thoughts to my blog (mainly to get them out of my head. lol)

Our dream world almost never is reality. Especially when we are young and dream of the future. Some people have the ambition to stick to their goals, while others either never set attainable goals or just let life guide them. Most of my friends know I am a goal setter. Well as I reflected today of somethings... I was reminded of all I didn't accomplish. The young ME with high hopes. Don't get me wrong, I am (for the most part) happy with the way things are; however I would be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed in several aspects of my journey. Decisions effected my course and therefore it changed forever. Here are some expectations I had of my life, at the age I was when I set it and a little spin off of where I am now.

All through school I knew exactly what I wanted to be. My kindergarten teacher, Mrs. King inspired me to want to be JUST like her. I knew I was gonna be a teacher, a K-Teach! I took courses during high school for early childhood education and psychology. I found the best school in Georgia for a teaching degree. Berry College in Rome, Ga! I had it all planned out... so I thought. I graduated from a private high school at 16 yrs old and because of my age, was forced to go to a community college for my basics. I went... but I was not happy. I WANTED to go to Berry College... my parents said no because it was too far away. I attended the local college for a year. During that time I met a man and fell in love. Somehow LOVE blinded me from my goal of being a teacher. We got married that summer and I never looked back. Several years and a baby later, I was blindsided with the thought... "I took the summer off and forgot I was suppose to go back!" I have tried several times to return to college and the road blocks were all around me. It seems like I take a step towards my goal of (now at 37) just wanting a college degree in SOMETHING, and two steps back. I am not sure if this goal will be attained. Over the years, I have taught Sunday School classes in all age groups... so that should account for some of my goal being met. I am teaching young children about what matters most in my life.

So there is one thought on my mind...

5 comments:

tbsomeday said...

go for it!
you are still so young
it's never too late

Shantay said...

I hear ya... I just wished I could afford it right now. This is one goal I will probably continue trying for. Just a Degree! .lol.

goldenrose1 said...

Shantay, with your determination and faith in God you can obtain your degree. Seek God's face for wisdom and understanding. Just trust Him. I will be in prayer for you.
You have already done so much to enhance and encourage the lives of others.
Your friend and kindergarten teacher

Shantay said...

OMG! Here is the lady that inspired me and still is inspiring today! Thank you!!! {{big hugs}} What a surprise to see that you follow my blog. *smiles*

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